I have to say today I was spoiled by my amazing family and I am so full of gratitude for these girls, this man, this life, the women in it, and the path behind me 😍 it got me thinking about all that I have been through that has prepared me for being a mom and quite honestly I don’t think I could share all the ways I have been grown into this role. Let me tell you a few that I struggled with, and maybe you have pieces in your past that caused pain or worry or even complete sadness that have prepared you too.
My preparation started young, before I was even in this world.
First I was blessed with a strong, loving mother, THEN He made me a big sister 😍 Then He forever changed me when we moved in with my grandma and I got learn from her and my mom every day ❤️ Then so many amazing and hard things followed as I grew from child to mother.
All the while, every moment, every struggle, every lesson from these incredible selfless women, was preparing me for the woman and mom I was meant to be ❤ I never understood ANY of it, I never saw it coming, and maybe you didn’t either?
Then something happened: God took my heart right out of my body and put it right in these two incredible girls I get to call mine 👭 He made me their mommy 🙌🏼🙌🏼 He was working it all together for my good, He really really was ❤
These amazing girls were the reason for all of it! For being raised by the strong and selfless women who taught me everything I know about being the mom I am today. Watching my mom and grandma as best friends made me want that with my own mom and I am so thankful I have it 👭
For my mom, choosing her children and their future and success at every turn, leaving the man she loved but was no good for her, only to protect and love us. Because of her strength I have zero doubts doing what is best for my girls (even when they don’t agree😉), it is second nature, it is inate and I have the very best example over and over again to draw from ❤
For the role of big sister, mediator, advice giver, blame taker, rule breaker and even sometimes bully 😬, it prepared me for everything I go through every day raising a big sister 😉 and a little sister, and allowed me to understand their relationship on a level I never could have without my beautiful baby sisters ❤️
For the moments I missed having a dad around, it prepared me to choose the right man to be their daddy, a good and strong man who would ALWAYS be there for them, In All the moments they want him there for and even in the ones they don’t 😉
For the illness of my grandma, who was my second parent, my best friend and an incredible woman, it taught me compassion and empathy and patience and as a mother I use those EVERY day ❤️
And even for my angel babies up there looking down and living in my heart, He was preparing my body, my marriage and my heart for these girls, for this scary and sometimes treacherous ride of motherhood and even in that grief I am thankful.
He continues to surround me with the strongest and most incredible women and I am thankful for each of them ❤️
But these girls, Kayden Elizabeth and Tenley Florence, they were written on my heart before I ever knew they were coming, it is incredibly obvious to me NOW, that THEY were the reason for it all, they are His plan, they are the freakin best 😍 They are the perfect mix of sweet and sassy, loving, giving, grateful, hilarious, intelligent, compassionate girls and they are my best friends❤ I mean, I literally miss them when they are sleeping and feel what they are feeling and hurt when they are hurting…I mean every word when I call them my heart, because Even though my physical heart is still inside my body, my “heart” for the world, for others, and the center of all my emotions is completely in their hands and dependent on their day and their mood. There is nothing that could be better than being their mommy and I am so thankful God chose me for the job all those years ago!
What is your pain in your past? What have you struggled to overcome? What is different about you and your story? I would really love to hear! Because I guarantee you, THOSE are the things that have prepared you for your future, your purpose, your real life. They are the things that hurt the most, but help you grow the best❤️ They are your story.
This Mothers Day my heart for all of you is to see and feel the purpose in your pain, because being a mom is not an easy job, so it goes to figure, it comes from a less than easy path ❤️ Find gratitude in it all, big and small, lead with gratitude.